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135.99

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A Rat(s)?

So, i've decided to get one more rat.

Maybe two.

No more than that though.

But i'm waiting till August to get them, so i've been searching craigslist and ratterys in Illinois.

Melinda is excited about having a companion, as am I.

I've heard from one rattery Pitter Patter Rattery and am in contact with them about getting one, two at most.

She just had a large litter five days ago (which is perfect because they need 6 weeks anyway, and i'll be gone for six weeks, so I could pick them up after my classes are over.

Assuming all goes well, mind you.

I'm excited and nervous!

SLC Punk and Stuff to think about

Well, I watched SLC punk and Dr.Horrible's Sing Along Blog earlier today.

I loved SLC Punk, and Dr. Horrible wasn't bad.

I've been thinking about things to do over summer (again) and things to get.

1. I'd like to learn to swim, and then go swimming (yes, I never learned to swim).

2. I'd like to go paintballing, i'm considering asking my brother to do this with me.

3. I need to get a camcorder (not sure why yet, but I get the feeling it is important), and a new MP3 player. My current MP3 is killing me, it won't retain a charge.

Feel free to suggest brands of either a Camcorder or an MP3.

4. I need to retain 300$ for Chicago, and I need to find out the distance from the train station to downtown chicago.

Tangent: 27$ for Body World, bus fair is about 2$ one way, and I don't remember the price of the subway.

5. I need to figure out how to make my time away from Melinda (my rat) easier on the both of us, without introducing another rat. I don't think she'd like that. I'll consult some of my friends and see what they think...hmmm...

Tangent: Getting another rat

Pos: She'd have a friend to socialize with and therefore wouldn't get depressed from no social interaction from me.

Cons: If I do get one, i'll be taking into account a vet visit to ensure that this rat has no physical illness and it might be a bit of a risk to do it with only a couple of weeks for them to get to know one another before I leave. I'm not sure if that is truly safe for either of them.

6. I need to get a roll of canvas at some point, this summer.

7. I need to clean, re-arrange, and paint my bathroom (assuming that 6-7yr old paint still works).

8. I need to get a new/another job. I'll fill out at a library application tomorrow, on campus.

9. I need to bleach the sides of my hawk, I might dye them teal. I already have the dye.

10. I want to go to the Peoria Public Zoo and the Forest Park Nature Center.

College-What's my plan?

Well, this summer i'm hopefully going to be studying at the School of the Art Institute for six weeks in Chicago, living in the dorm.

Upon my return I will need to find another job, either on campus or a transferrable job (borders, goodwill, JoAnns etc. Places that have locations in Chicago).

I will be saving all of my grant money for when I move to Chicago sometime next year.

I will apply to SAIC and upon being accepted, I will defer my enrollment for one semester or one year. This will hold my spot in the schools system, without forcing me right into school. This gives me time to get settled in Chicago prior to starting my studies.

The money I saved will be my savings buffer while I live there.

This way if something happens with my academics I have a place to live in the area.

It will have to be a really small studio apartment, i'm sure.

Now, what's good about this plan is that I can tailor it if I end up moving out of state.

The biggest difference in those two plans is the urgency of a car.

So..working

Didn't happen today.

I called in, partly because I was so sleep, and the other half because even if this call terminated me, I didn't want my termination to be a no call-no show.

They tally up how many times your late and call in and if you get six points total you get terminated.

I have NO IDEA how many points I have.

I've got some though, I know that for sure.

So, if i'm not terminated I need to give them my two weeks early this week.

I'm pretty sure i'm not (terminated), it'll suck if I am.

All that paperwork.

Oi.

Netflix

So, I renewed my Netflix after some time away.

So far i've watched:

and i'm getting ready to watch another movie, even though I work at 10 tomorrow.

Graveyards and Great Blue Herons

Roxie came over at 1:18, about five minutes after I stirred from sleep.

no lie.

I got dressed and we headed out.

It was really gloomy today and drizzling.

We stopped by Emo's and I bought us ice cream and we shared cheese fries.

Then we went to Springdale Cemetery, where I took a shit ton of photos and managed to jar some grave dirt for my altar.

We spent a good two hours there, wandering around talking, even ended up in one of the pet memorial areas.

There is a lot of history for me at that Graveyard.

My first kiss

My first date

My first ghost

not in that order, mind you.

But still, I even have family buried there. Lots of stories.

On our way out I spotted a Great Blue Heron, it was beautiful.

Later on, I found out some stuff about Alec that pissed me off.

I understand that i'm going through a spiritual death, but shit.

I wish I could turn it off sometimes, at least so I wouldn't be able to care about him anymore.

It'll come with time, I know.

Anyway, i'm going to go watch The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.

I already love her and I haven't even seen the movie.

<3

Miss Pandora - FW - Paris

Trailers

I normally don't like these movies, but this looks good.--^

Purchases, Vet appointments, and Hangover II?!

I took Melinda to the vet this afternoon around 3:45, I left her there while he ran some tests on her and came back for her at 5:30.

During that time I went out to lunch with Brittany.

She has been sneezing so I wanted her to be put on some medication.

So he ran X-rays, a stool sample, a nebulizer, and gave her medication.

Good news: Her lungs look really good minus a little hint of a cold and her organs look great.

Especially for her being almost 3 now.

He thinks her problems are coming from her nasal passages, so he wants to do more work with those here soon.

Later on I went and saw Hangover Part II with Carey and Dave Gibbons.

It was really really hilarious, much better than I anticipated.

The theater was PACKED with college kids and underage kids and party people.

But at least they could shut up long enough to enjoy the movie.

P.s.

Is it bad that i've bought so much stuff over the last two-three weeks that I can no longer remember, what I have and have not bought, and what exactly i'm expecting?

Recent Purchases & Buckle Fractures

So, I went to the doctor today and got X-rayed.

Aaaand, i've got an acute buckle fracture on the inside of my right wrist.

So my hand is in a splint and has to be re-wrapped every 8 hours.

I also went and bought some strong Aleve tablets to take as well.

I've got an appointment June 8th @ 11:15 with a sports doctor to tell me when I can go back to playing.

*sigh*

I won't be able to play in the June 18th bout before I leave for Chicago, which sucks majorly.

So, to cheer myself up I bought the following items from Heavy Red.

This shirt

This corset

P.s.

My splint

Vultures

So the other night Vulture came to me while I was sleeping.

He was an old world Vulture because he had a really wrinkly neck and turned completely white in front of me.

My pagan friend, Brittany, told me that the other day while we were at the Graveyard she noticed my energy seeming to have a harpy-like feel. Which was the oncoming emphasis of vulture, vulture's energy is similar to both Griffin and Harpy energies.

Death and Rebirth

New Vision

The Vulture is the symbol of death and rebirth,

the mother symbol,

and represents purification.

For those with this totem,

you will be noticed more for what you do than

how you appear.

Vulture or Condor

teaches us how to soar above our limitations.

It is linked to the Griffin.

This Totem is a permanent totem; once it enters your life

it will be with you always, through your numerous lifetimes.

You may start to see auras and colors around people;

Vulture can help teach you how to accomplish this through patience and vision.

Vultures teach you how to soar without using much energy,

how to ride the thermal winds instead of flapping.

Go with the flow. Use your own energy powerfully and efficiently.

Vulture is associated with the sense of smell and aromatherapy is a good tool

to use to connect with this Totem.

The Vulture promises us that no matter how difficult things are at the moment,

rescue and change are imminent.

Soar above the drudgeries of every day life through spirit.

And Vulture/Condor is there to protect you in this journey.

Neo Punk Girl - FW - Paris

Phoning Girl - FW - Paris

Jacky the Cat Woman - FW - Paris

Brawlberries Vs Polka Bots Bout!

Brawlberries won!!

115-101.

I signed a bunch of autographs for little kids and posed for photos.

I had an older woman request for a photo with me, which was pretty awesome!

I did however do something to my right wrist, i'll probably need to get it checked out this week.

I think it is just a sprain.

Swimsuit

<3

Cameras and Roller Derby

I bought a wireless remote for my camera, so I can take reference photos of myself.

and I also bought a series of five lenses that give you macro shots(like really close up bugs and what not)

Both totaled out to be $35.14.

I'm finishing my loan application today for Chicago.

Hopefully it all goes well.

I'm considering dying my hawk teal...

Oh! I've already gotten responses from the Chicago Outfit and the Windy City Rollers to come practice with them while i'm residing in Chi-town.

If everything goes through and I can make this happen, the six weeks in Chicago will be like a dream come true.

BrawlBerries and Mohawks

We had our Brawlberries party.

A lot of food, we made buttons and skirts, and got our jerseys.

It was a lot of fun.

I also got my hair cut yesterday and she shaved the sides almost completely (I LOVE it) and put my hair up for me.

<3<3<3

Easel

Richeson Giant Dulce Lyptus Easel

$299.00 (84"-107"W)

Friends and Great Blue Herons

So i'm currently applying to take another class in Chicago this summer (totaling me to 6 weeks) so that I can qualify to apply for a federal or personal loan. Hopefully, I can.

So today I woke up(late) and went to hang out with Laura Dimitru and Teresa Gentry, two of the girls from MAP 09! We barely see one another on campus so we decided to have some fun hanging out since summer is NOW! And we went to a local park with a little lagoon area.

Right away I saw a Great Blue Heron flying overhead, and I identified it to them and explained how you know it is a Great Blue Heron and not a stork (Herons fly with their necks still curved in an 's' shape, Storks usually fly with their necks completely straight).

We walked along the dock area and there were lilly pads and algae and we were talking about the fish in the pond that were leaving bubbles on the surface. When we spotted the Heron on the opposite side of the pond. We watched it wade through the water and I said to my friends "Hey, you know what would be cool? If we got to see it eat a fish. I'm really curious how it catches them and eats it", and within ten minutes it speared a fish with its beak. We could see the fish wiggle from side to side on the end of the beak and somehow it ate the fish. After eating the fish it wiggled its feathers and scooped up water in its beak. I'm assuming the fish was still wiggling all the way down into his stomach. He flew away after that.

The way the Great Blue Heron spears its prey is significant with its medicine, symbolizing the ability to take aggressive action for opportunity. Do not let opportunity pass you by, be aggressive about taking action to make it happen.

After that, me and Teresa went to eat and we ate some IHOP awesome-ness and chatted.

I came home, filled out my second registration form for SAIC and second housing form. Brittany came by dropped off some of my drawings that were at Alec's house and I went with them to Barnes and Nobles, but not before dropping off my completed SAIC forms at the postal office. I read some of Ted Andrews, Animal Speak, I was reading about Herons, snakes, spiders, bats, otters etc. My main totem animals really.

So now i'm going to spend the rest of the day, relaxing with my Melinda, maybe painting(I should!), watching TV, reading etc. soaking in my first full day of summer.

Cee Lo Cover for me

My good friend Tara Branch did a Cee Lo acoustic cover dedicated to me.

She's pretty great.

<3<3<3

So says, Mother Spider

Spider says that the only way change can truly occur is through acceptance of yourself, of others, and of those things you wish you never had to accept. Only by true acceptance can you activate change within the world around you, so says Mother Spider.

The Story of Crocodile

Crocodile rolled over and under

crushing and drowning Zebra.

Zebra cried "Why are doing this to me? Why do you need my flesh?"

Crocodile shouted "For clarity Zebra, for clarity and for peace. Because this is the way of the universe". Zebra halted under Crocodile's body, her white fur soaked and streaked with red.

She looked Crocodile straight in his ancient eyes and said "But Crocodile, first you must give. You must give in order to receive, for that is the true way of the world. You don't have to be a monster Crocodile, there is beauty within you."

Crocodile became angry, throwing his body around with so much force he destroyed Zebra and let her float to the surface, in pieces.

I am a monster, wept Crocodile as he fed on Zebra.

Crocodile didn't understand that there must always be balance and that his purpose in the world doesn't have to make him monstrous. This is Crocodile's lesson, to find balance where it appears the hardest to achieve and understand. Crocodile must never forget that everything is equal in the eyes of the Great Spirit, for if he does, he puts himself at risk for selfishness and self-loathing.

I'm paying 400$ for it!
June 7th @ The Constable Tattoo Parlor in Plainfield,IL
I've sent him the photos and my reference so he can tweak it.

Black Ghost - FW - Paris

Fashion Journalist - FW - Paris

Curly-haired Girl - Odéon - Paris

Bout party!

The bout was fantastic.
It was really close the whole time, we were ahead twice, tied many times, and they were ahead twice.
They won by one jam in which we had two blockers out on the floor and our jammer was in the box with our other two blockers.
I got a couple of majors due to hitting after the whistle.
I went to the after party for a free meal.
Watched some drunk leg wrestling.
I had a cheeseburger and talked with my teammates.
I rode home with Bumble Beebs and Man Hands(her husband), and got home at 1:30am.
<3

Bout Day

So today is bout day ladies and gents.

Our B travel team versus the Missfits All Stars.

Last night was the Studio party at Stephanie Scott's house, they bought tons of pasta for us.

Which was great for me because I could carbo load before today!

We took our Spring 2011 photo on her front steps as it started to rain.

It thunderstormed last night, lightning and all.

I've got one more final and then it is summer, on Tuesday is my last final.

I'm so excited for the summer. <3

I sent out my information and 150$ for housing downpayment up to SAIC for a three week class this summer in painting. 9-4 everyday. I want to take a six week course but I do have to work over the summer. SO i'm finding out how to get 4,505$ to afford this excursion, plus like 80$ for other things.

I did get 570$ last night from my MAP grant.

I'm talking to my dad about possibly getting some money from him, and then whatever my paycheck is next week.

I did get the newest issue of Hi Fructose in the mail the other day, along with my new shirt, and the American Artists Drawing Magazine.

<3

Girl with a Hat - Odéon - Paris

Clarity

Now, I do want to go ahead and say that I don't hate him. And I told him this the last time we spoke and I found out about everything, of course this made him angrier because he feels guilty and if I had reciprocated his rage then he'd have given himself justification for his mistakes.I also want to say that i'm not shutting him out as a person in the future. I've been able to assess things that showed my own emotional immaturity within our previous relationship and things that I always overlooked about him. I've grown a lot over the past month and i'm happy that this happened now. But I don't believe he's a bad person, but I think he has a lot of problems he needs to sort through before he really finds himself. I also have decided that this probably happened because we were together at the wrong time(I always told him about this during our relationship. I'm too perceptive sometimes), because we got together without developing independently as adults before hand. So it got to the point where it seemed like we became one person instead of two people. I think that because of our emotional immaturity we weren't truly able to continue on at this time. But as I said, i'm unopposed to him in the future, but i've got a lot of my own things to sort out so i'm not going to be in a relationship for a while.I wanted to make that clear.

Frida Gustavsson - FW - Paris

Sunny afternoon Look - FW - Paris

Navy Look - Les Tuileries - Paris

The Next Morning

The torso

was pliable

as I carried him

home.

I put him

in a small

white

garbage bag.

The next morning

he was covered

in flies.

Clover

It lays

curled up

on the side of the road.

In a curve

of cement.

His eyes

are black

and hollow

with small creases.

He's still

so soft,

his pepper gray

fur.

But his leg

is missing

it has been busted

completely

it lies under him

now.

Elisa Nalin - Rue Etienne Marcel - Paris

Elisa Nalin est originaire de Vérone en Italie.
Elle est Styliste free-lance et Designer

Official

Alec and I will not be getting back together anytime soon.

He has chosen a path that I do not agree with, and has chosen to be with someone else(at least once or twice and hid it from me, granted he's single but at least he could tell me the truth and not lead me on thinking he wanted to be with me).

This is his choice, my choice is to leave him behind.

What a nice swift kick in the nuts life?!

It's blows like this that remind you what you do have and what to be grateful for.

Green Woman

Edit: He is now officially dating her. What an asshat!

Summer Goals?

Well, summer for me starts a week from this tuesday. This tuesday is our last full day of this spring 2011 semester and finals start thursday. I have one final thursday, two on friday, and one the tuesday following. I've been thinking about what I want to accomplish this summer, I know i'm getting my tattoo June 7th, and i've got quite a few bouts this summer (yay!).

Some things i'd like to do

*Create a website, possibly from Go Daddy.com before the Fall 2011 semester. 11.99$ a month.

*Visit Body World in Chicago,IL before September!

*Paint my bathroom (if the old purple paint still works).

*Visit The Milwaukee Institute of Art and Design <3<3

*Read a lot, paint a lot

Aaaand here are some clothes i'd like to buy:

$32.99

$32.99

$32.99

Chest Piece- In process Sketch

Sexy Clothing

Sexy Clothing

Every woman loves to feel attractive and sexy. Although it is said that clothes do not make a woman sexy-her personality does, that statement can certainly be disputed. There are a wide variety of ways that you can make yourself appear to be more sexy, and sexy does not have to be cheap, and nor should it. Most women look great in low cut and sexy dresses that accentuate her curves and shape.